Friday, November 20, 2015
Sydney day 1 part 2
It'a hard
I really stress now
Aku tulis sebab ini kan diari aku..nak cerita kat sapa..mana ada yg paham....
Kadang menyesal dengan keputusan yg dibuat. Bila dah dibuat seperti smua masalah terletak dibahu aku..
Renovate umah dgn beli rumah 2 benda berbeza. Kalau beli rumah..rumah tak siap pun takde la perut sentiasa dipenuhi kupu2...sebu je rasanya...ntah mcm mana nak ckp ntah..mana ada org nak paham..yg mereka tahu..mereka tak perlu pendam perasaan marah dan tak puas hati dlm diri mereka..hamburkan pada aku..biar aku terpisat2 dengar dan telan..dan aku plak boleh berdiam makan hati sampai satu hari mati pun berdiri dengar luahan2 yg menyakitkan hati...
Aku reno dapor..mmg itu dlm wishlist aku..impian aku..smua org ada impian kot nak anak, cuti oversea..tido hotel atau apa2lah...impian aku dr dulu..dr mula2 beli rumah ni adalah besarkan dapor.aku suka msk walau tak sedap...aku nak ada wardrobe yg mana dlm bilik tu muat utk smua baju2 aku n melor.tak payah lipat..aku gantung je..senang nak tgk n pakai...aku nak bilik tido yg best mcm dekat hotel..impian aku tu kot..selalu berangan angan...bilik, wardrobe smua aku cuba realisasikan sendiri..tp kepuasan masih takde...
Bila melor setuju nak besarkan dapor..aku paling happy kot walaupun aku kecut perut...bajet adalah masalah utama..mslh berbangkit pasti timbul...dan akhirnya lepas satu..satu timbul..aku series macam nak pegi pantai bagan lalang tu then terjun timbul then terjun balik sampai puas dan berfikir..kenapa aku nak buat apa yg dah aku cadangkan dekat melor..
Kadang2 betollah kita jangan ikut sangat impian yg selalu dlm kepala hotak kita ni..aku mungkin ms tu terlebih minun air ketum..jadi tak waras..hahahha
Aku stress...mmg stress...apa la yg mampu aku buat..Allah bagilah aku petunjuk..tenangkan hati aku yg gundah ini...sabarkan aku bila marah melanda..sejukkan aku bila panas tiba...moga pelangi ada dan rumah aku jadi syurga aku dan melor..
P/s:mana ada aku minum ketum..haish..
Sydney day 1
Saturday, November 7, 2015
Hot sunny day
MasyaAllah...its very hot today...alhamdulillah, we can see the sky n the beautiful cloud..seem like watching a thousand of marshmallow fly..hahaha...yup..i watch a lot of cartoon n i luv sofia the first..kuikuikui
So..what a perfect combo with this hot weather...hurmmm...i cant stop thinking about starbuck and the iced blended with a lot of cream...owh gosh...so yummy n cool...
Why this happen today..right now.huh...when i was stuck at this place n cant find even a bottle of cold mineral watet...haishhh la..dahaga benar saya ini.pun...
Monday, October 26, 2015
Sydney..... im in love
Thursday, October 8, 2015
Maafkan saya
Hi blog..
Yesterday, i up a status at fb. Tanpa prejudis..ia telah mengguris hati seseorang..demi Allah aku sangat berterima kasih atas jasa2 beliau...
Tapi keadaan sudah berlaku..even aku dah minta maaf, tapi keadaan masih panas..
Apa2 pun aku harap dia maafkan aku...dia terlalu berjasa utk kami semua...
Abah...et rindu abah sangat2
Friday, October 2, 2015
Jibam dan Tuan Anas
Almost a month this ntry in my draft...hahaha
I buy this book 2 days ago...but ive read the sinopsis a month before when i n melor go to alamanda..that time, ive read a latest novel by siti rosmizah..i love her book even i know the ending.. one thing i noted about siti rosmizah novel is When happy part, ill be the happiest person..but when sad come, i also will cry...even the story just same like other book...rich girl with bad attitude...rich man n crazy behavior ...but being my self..i will buy even im not read at that time...
Huh..hurmmmm....this is not about siti rosmizah...hahaha
So..after settle with bank, i straight to giant n buy a novel..i dont care..hahaha...in my mind i just want to buy 1 novel...tuan anas mikael.because i've follow puan ziela jalil instag n now she produced a drama from this novel...hero act by aaron aziz n the heroin is zara zya...im not a fan of zara zya but sometime this gurl a cute especially when she laugh...
N the other 1 is jibam kahwin janda vouge...
When i reached home, 1st novel i read is jibam..not tuan anas..hahaha..well tipical me...
So first novel...jibam kahwin janda vouge..
I had read jibam novel before this..write by ujang...but this novel totaly diffrent with jibam...
This jibam about a giant man name syamsul eddie but his parent n his friend call jibam because his attitude n fizikal..actually he is a normal man but straight forward ...i laugh a lot when read this book..n need only 1 day to finished it.hahaha..its so funny n i really enjoy the story..n i just imagine ungku ismail.aziz as a jibam coz he have a big hair n so tall...n siti elizad as katrina..well i still cant move on from teman lelaki upahan..hahahha...
Story line are simple but not to boring...
I love when jibam with katrina..how jibam treat katrina as a wife..how katrina respect her husband even jibam is poor n sometime like a 'dungu' man..n i really adore how jibam protect katrina as his wife...
In this novel...no more handsome, tall or muka mat saleh hero...only a nerd kampung guy with a gud heart..owh how lucky katrina...n more lucky if still have a man like jibam...mbahahahahaha...sengal...but i do not need any jibam...because i have my melor..
Tuesday, September 22, 2015
Off day
Assalamualaikum
I'm off today...a new roster n melor still need time to adapt with his new job, so i've need to take melor's duty before this...alaaaa only pay the bill n buy our groceries...mihmihmih..i hate when have to wait for pay the bill but i love when shoping our groceries even my vegies will dry in our freezer..hahaha
As always, i'm onduty on raya haji...sory family n inlaws..for the long time, i lost my crazy raya celebration..what ever happen i've to accept..n im lucky had melor as a husband who really tolerate with me...even he can't join his family at his hometown, he's always ok..
What i should i ask more..i have a best husb..i have a great buddies n i have a loving partner..even he always be my punching bag too...may Allah care my melor..
Actually i supposed to go to amsterdam last night together with my officer...it's funny story but good experience to us...last minute cancel and alhamdulillah i can handle my other's problem that i should settle today..if i at ams, i've need too wait after raya...hurmmm everything happen with a gud reason...bersangka baik selalu...
Saturday, September 19, 2015
Satu labah2..cuba panjat perigi
Hi peeps..
Assalamualaikum
Its gud that i had a time to write here...actually i have a lot of time but being a lazy lady...everything slow...
Well..i still not finish my journey with family at london and paris..really want too write here as my diary n will continue it soon..
My life totaly change now...not because i've pregnant..hahaha...we still 'two' gether...
Melor had an activity to do now...he's not longer with the company n yes he's the one from 6k....what ever happen i've need to be in his back to support him...first time when we know it, he's ok...but me as his wife was cried like crazy...i know how love he is with the company..almost 21 years finally just finish like that...yup..a simple word..sabar...yes we are in gud condition..hahaha... as a normal human being, of course we were sad...other wise, i realise that i'm one of the yellow renjer...ill be ok..ceh...
And alhamdulillah..we will stay strong n belive Allah knows better....
In life, we need to think positif as other people do...as for me n melor, we support each other but for make people around us understand with what happens to us is the challange...insyaallah we do it together slowly but surely will get a gud time for us to spent together like before...
So for now, no movie, no shopping, no makan2 or no lepaking like before...dont worry melor, we will adjust our time n for sure will try to find another day to njoy with u..
But one thing that i want u know melor, i love u till my last breath...my heart my soul n everything just for u...love u as always n i really misssss u
Wednesday, July 22, 2015
Ada ruang tak untuk saya
Bila dilihat hari yg lepas
Mahu menangis tak bersuara
Namun bila dikenang yg indah
Ia mati seketika
Terhenti bukan tanda menyerah
Bukan makna rasa bersalah
Tidak jugak terus melatah
Tapi hanya perlu sedikit ruang untuk bertenang
Mencari serombong untuk bernafas
Melihat ketempat yang semakin sempit
Memandang walaupun perasaan perit
Melukis disaat sedih
Melakar pelangi dikala hujan membasahi bumi
Dan aku melihat aku yg buntu
Muatkah aku duduk disitu
Layakkah aku gelak seperti dulu
Atau hanya seperti penyapu
Yg ada atau tidak terus kaku disitu
Menanti pelangi dikala kemarau
Hanya tuhan mampu tunaikan
Berhati2 dgn permintaan
Atau aku yg berangan dalam pelukan mimpi ngeri yg jadi kenyataan
Monday, July 20, 2015
Rumahmanisrumah
Kenapa org ckp home sweet home..
Walaupun rumah tu kecik dan buruk...walaupun asyik bertekak...
Walaupun tak cukup kelengkapan
Walaupun air slow mcm air kenseng...
Tapi home tetap sweet home..
Sebab
-boleh baring suka2 hati
-boleh bermalasan
-boleh seksi2
-boleh kentut kuat2
-boleh tido berkeruh sampai nak roboh rumah
-boleh bangun kol 12 tengah hari
-boleh mandi sebelum maghrib
-boleh makan tido depan tb
Boleh macam2 la...best kan rumah manis rumah
Hurmmm area umah aku masih org main mercun..meriahnye hari raya kan..hahhaah
Friday, July 17, 2015
Wednesday, July 15, 2015
hi
Kali ini lebih dalam dan pedih
Kerna aku sudah berjanji
Dia cinta ku yang terakhir
Sungguh tak pernah ku menduga
Dia akan mengulanginya semula
Namun untuk menodai cinta
Dan membiarkan aku sengsara
Dia tempat ku sandar
Angan ku pendamkan
Satu percintaan
Yang bisa ku jadikan
Tangga-tangga ku ke pintu syurga
Meleraikan rindu
Mengecap bahagia
Yang kerap dimadah
Insan yang murni
Yang dah rasakan cinta
Yang aku... mimpi
Saturday, July 11, 2015
Ramadhan 2015
Assalamualaikum
Aku rindu nak taip disini..melakar memori indah pasal london dan paris aritu..lama sangat aku tinggal..insyaallah lepas raya mungkin...
Ramadhan kali ni totally diffrent...tapi seronok..puas tapi penat...
Semalam dapat berita pasal ayah wanikeni...moga dia tabah dan moga roh ayah wani ditempatkan dikalangan orang2 yg beriman...
Terus aku rindu abah...rindu sangat..21 ramadhan lepas..genap 6 tahun abah tinggalkan kami..tapi aku selalu rasa abah disisi aku...abah ada dimana2....masa pegi london aritu..aku dan melor sedih..kalaulah abah ada..mesti dia paling happy nak pegi london dan paris...
Et rindu abah...
Alfatihah abah....alfatihah utk ayah wani...alfatihah utk ayah bazli
Friday, May 29, 2015
#tok dah pi london part 1
Thursday, May 21, 2015
#tokdahpilondon
kebodohan apakah ini
aku tak letak dekat P...bangang betol
melayang 160...
menyesal ..saket hati...hilang mood nak cuti...
tapi menangis pun tak berguna jugak kan..
hari bodoh aku namanye
sekian
terima kasih
owh adakah sumpahan bodo????????
hahaha
Friday, May 15, 2015
16 mei
assalamualaikum
Hurmm lama gile aku tgglkan zaman sekolah..
Aku selalu nak tulis disini..tapi aku tak pasti wajarkah aku tulis..
Korang mungkin ada pengalaman indah ms sekolah...
Aku...hurmmm..indah la sangat...
Zaman aku dulu mungkin trend sapa muka hot dialah akan dpt perhatian lebih..hahaha..aku yg muka sendu ni jgn haraplaaaaaaa..
Aku pemalu..aku tak cantek..aku gemok..aku nak ada kawan rapat...tapi aku tak pandai nak bermesra..aku tak pandai nak ambik hati mcm org lain..aku mudah terasa...
Aku ada kwn ms darjah 6.dia pandai..pandai belajar..masuk pidato..n cikgu syg dia...aku nak jadi mcm dia...tp lepas upsr dia dpt street A..so kami terpisah..aku takde kwn dah.aku masuk form 1..aku ada kwn lain.diorg duduk dekat rumah aki..tapi kami terpisah kelas...akhirnya kami pun tak mesra mcm dulu.sebab aku kan tak hot..aku kan slow...aku sush nak rapat dgn org...dan of course la pehal depa nak kwn dgn aku yg emo ni kan...
Aku cuba aktifkan diri aku..tujuan utama sebab nak ada kwn..aku nak cekgu jugak bagi perhatian..bukan jadi kesayangan.aku suka belajar..aku suka smua subjek..aku suka n sayang smua cekgu..tapi yg paling aku sayang dan aku hormat sampai bila2 adalah teacher mastura aku..dia baik sangat2..cikgu english aku...
Masuk form 4 aku kwn dgn 3 kwn aku yg mmg super genius otak mereka...timah, kak ju n ema...depa pun jd kesayangan cekgu..2 jadi cikgu...1 keje bagus jugak..
Aku.......
Hurmm aku ingat lagi..aku masuk pidato...cikgu yg ajar aku sampai bengang dgn aku sebab lembab..dahtu aku hafal sebab aku takut dia marah..penghayatan takde...
Aku nak join netball..aku tak pandai main..cekgu yg sorang ni geram..dia baling bola aku tak sempat tangkap, kena betol2 kat cermin mata aku..terpesek dowh..tak saket..tapi hati aku luka sampai skang aku ingat....bukan aku tak cuba tangkap..tp dia baling dgn nada yg marah...salah aku kot sebab suka pkr negatif..
Kertas jawapan aku ditulis bodo sebab aku salah jawab..dan sampai skang aku bodo lah kot..sebab depa kan cikgu..apa yg depa ckp tukan satu doa...jadi sampai sekarang aku feel like a cursed...tau mcm sumpahan..
Aku ingat lagi sorang cikgu ni siap tulis dlm mjlh sekolah aku..konon sebagai kenangan sebab aku kan dah habis sekolah..last dia tulis, misi kita berbeza tapi matlamat adalah sama...gud luck in future...hurmm mungkin aku yg tak paham apa dia tulis sebab tu aku down terus bila tgk dia tulis mcm tu...
Well...aku tahu..tanpa guru sapalah aku..aku yg berdosa..aku yang bersalah .aku yang bebal..aku yang bodoh..aku yang lembab..aku yang gemok..aku yang sombong..aku yang poyo...
Semua salah aku sebab aku kan anak murid..
Apa2 pun selamat hari guru..korang smua role model pada anak2...jangan jadikan zaman sekolah adalah mimpi ngeri bila korang dah tua..mcm aku..nak wish teachers day pun sentap..ngehngehnheg
Thursday, May 14, 2015
Khamis dah
Assalamualaikum...
Kosong je rasanya..ntah apa yg aku pkr...
Mlm td balik konon nak isi minyak kereta tapi 3 stesen aku lalu dgn sepi jeeeeee..
Vengong...hurm..klah..
Senyum ar
Saturday, May 9, 2015
Avengers vs pilot cafe
Assalamualaikum
(Punya lama dalam draft...nape ntah takldh publish)
Petang semalam lepas makan aku nak naik atas la...nak lepak bilik..nak amik phone..tgk atas phone ada 4 kpg tiket...tengok2 cite avenger..eh pesal 4 tiket..sapa lgi 2 kan..